I smoked the best, and put it to Rest

I used to love to smoke chronic called "OG Kush", everyday.  I even told myself that I was smoke it until the day that I die but man was I wrong.  I smoked Kush like a broke stove.

I was living in Los Angeles, California, at the time and I knew it would have been hard for me to get clean and sober in Los Angeles. Mainly because I had a weed card for the same stuff pictured in this blog (medicine bottle and everything). A doctor actually dispersed it to me weekly. So I came back to boring Arkansas.  I went to 30 day treatment at Quapaw House www.quapawhouseinc.org and abstained from all mind and mood altering substances. 

I've seen this recovery thing done many different ways marijuana maintenance is the #1 lie (the Mental Obsession) that I will tell myself in order to prime myself for what it is that I really want some good Colombian Heroin. 

Then I stepped foot into Real Recovery, Gangsta Recovery, AA Program Recovery www.aa.org which by the way, requires total abstinence from all mood and mind altering substances, including chronic. Also this further requires a total life change such as quit using women, lying, cheating, robbing, stealing, shooting crooked....need I say more. 

But you see due to this thing called a Metal Obsession as soon as I would take that first hit I couldn't put that sweet tasting bubonic down because I couldn't stop thinking about it. Then it would lead me to doing anything: drinking, snorting xanax, then to drinking beer, cocaine and then I'd be back on the Horse (Heroin)! I'd do anything to lift that merciless obsession. 

Also as well as the Mental Obsession I have this thing called a Physical Allergy and I can't stop once I get started. When I hit that joint or take a drink my body doesn't process it like normal people. I develop a Craving called a Phenomenon of Craving. Then I start craving misdemeanors, felonies, wind up in jails, and my personal favorite Rehab facilities. I start smoking in Little Rock, Arkansas, and I wind up in Miami.

Today it is better than it has ever been before and I don't want or even feel like I need to smoke anymore. This recovery thing is the real deal and I want to keep doing it One Day at A Time.