What Happened?????

What happened to my life? I looked up at 28 years old living on the streets and having made quite a bit of money for my age, there was nothing left. I mean nothing. What happened? Where did I go wrong? Who did this to me? 

Well I can say today that all those crazy questions have been answered and I have received the power as promised by my sponsor in Step #2 when I came into AA. www.aa.org (If you don't get help please get help somewhere!) Step #2 was when all I had to do was believe that this new way of life was going to be better than the way I was living. If you have any questions about how I was living please refer to the preceding blog entries if you have any questions. What do I have to do today? 

The same thing that I did my third day in treatment, this morning I woke up hit my knees, read 86, 87, 88, of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, and I read a meditation.  Today was as good or actually better than that third day in treatment at Quapaw House www.quapawhouseinc.org when I finally admitted I was powerless. I had already admitted my life was unmanageable by admitting myself into treatment and given up on my old ways. 

The next thing that I had to do was to accept the disease process that was explained to me with the physical allergy and the mental obsession.  The one thing that helped me the most was getting honest with myself and realizing that no one else did this to me except, me. That was a revelation in my life. 

So what happened??? I have appeared to have recovered from a hopeless state of mind and body and my life seems really great today. However, I had to do some work such as the prayer and meditation, going to meetings, calling my sponsor, working the steps with my sponsor, and reading the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.